Two days after Jonathan Fielding fell to his death while taking photos from a scenic overlook in southern Utah, his older sister Rebecca found herself sitting on the same ledge where he had lost his footing. It was January 29. She had driven some 15 hours from her home in Missouri, where they had grown up. Wracked with grief, Rebecca Fielding said she was in a “really dark place.” Jonathan was her best friend, and while she sometimes doubted others’ love for her, she never questioned his. She said she’d journeyed to Utah to take her own life. Rebecca said she was planning to leave a journal at the site with her last words when the clouds parted and sunlight embraced her.